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Well, it’s the first day of the new year & I’m sitting in B.J.’s bed again talking to Emily. I don’t really know what I’m in the mood I’m in. I think it’s because I don’t ever want to be away from BJ & it’s like the Earth stands still when I am. It’s 5:52pm & I’m waiting for her to get off work at 7:00. My mom just doesn’t understand why I want to be here all the time. I like the feeling of knowing that if I’m good to somebody that they’re gonna be good back. My mom is never happy when I do anything. I just got sick of doing everything to please her & not getting any results. So, now, I do things for me.  It’s a whole lot more of a sure thing than taking a chance on her.

I know you’re going to read this. I just want to tell you I love you with everything I have; mind, body & soul. I WILL be with you forever no matter what anybody says. (Not even YOU!) My family and so-called friends can all go to hell if they don’t like it. You are the air I breathe and the love I feel. You are my…world.

I LOVE YOU, BONNIE JEAN MCGRAW. 

Will you be mine?