I just imported probably 70 or more entries from a Word document I’ve been using as a journal off and on since 2001.  The document is 97 pages long, so there’s quite a lot of memories and bitchin’ to have brought into LiveJournal at one sitting.  I think I’ve been working on it for about 3 1/2 hours or so.

The worst part about importing this type of stuff is re-reading everything and re-experiencing all the emotions of the documented times in your life.  It’s like having your life flash before your eyes and having to try to handle the heaviness of it all in one go.  

In my case, journaling tends to be a venting place for me, so, more often than not, I’ve kept up with fights or struggles or frustrations in my life (the past 4+ years or so of that being primarily focused on my relationship woes).  So, given that it’s mostly painful stuff that I’ve kept up with, it’s even harder to read it all.  It’s even harder to read yourself say over and over again “I just can’t take this anymore…” and to see that, 3 years later, you’re still taking it and feeling stupider than ever as a result.

I really want to start focusing more on keeping up with the positive, happier side of my life, so I guess I need to focus more on having more positive, happier experiences. 

Had some good Chinese food from Mr. Ho’s earlier today when Manon was over hanging out for a while.  I just LOVE LOVE LOVE their Lemon Chicken *drool drool*.  We watched Georgia Rule which is a movie that really surprised me with its emotional depth.

Also, Laina bought a new condo yesterday, so kudos to her!  Makes me feel even more like I wish I could get a place of my own, too – else than Manon, I’m the last person I know who doesn’t own their own place.  Guess I should get to bed so I can get up tomorrow and do something productive so I can make some money, catch up and get on the condo buying asap.