All told, I should be in bed right now. I’m tired, have a bit of a headache and have tons to do tomorrow. I got the OK today from Rennie on the Southmere re-design, which will be another nice chunk o’ change in the bank when it’s all said and done. On the flip side of that, I sent about $3000 in total to CRA today – $800 for second quarter GST that I hadn’t paid yet, $500 towards personal tax arrears and $1500 for current year’s taxes, hoping to not get in a bigger hole than the one I’m already in! Frank would be proud to see that I’m making the transition to being a taxpaying citizen.
My grandmother’s funeral apparently went OK. My Uncle Tom did the sermon and apparently it was nice. She is buried at the foot of Verdie’s grave in the cemetary in Moselle. I talked to Deidre after it was over and she told me they had gone through a bunch of Mawmaw’s things, including photos and some jewelry. While they were figuring out who was going to take which pieces, Deidre spoke up and picked out a ring for me. Funny thing is, it’s one of the only two pieces of jewelry I ever remember Mawmaw wearing – this one being a spoon ring type of piece, but there are some hearts in the shape of the “spoon”. Hard to explain and I haven’t seen it in ages, but I know she used to wear it all the time. The other piece was a really large aquamarine birthstone ring that she used to wear all the time, which Janet took. Deidre said she also got some photos that she’s going to send me. I was so shocked and touched that she would speak up for me when I wasn’t there and make sure that I got something that was my grandma’s. Otherwise, I’d have gotten nothing at all. It’s not for whatever negligible monetary value the piece may have, but for the sentimental value, particularly since it’s something I remember seeing her wear when I was a kid. I talked to my dad, too, and told him I felt bad for not being there, especially since I didn’t go to my Granny’s funeral either. He said he understood and not to beat myself up too badly, but that it would’ve been nice to have me there to hold onto and to make me feel better. I thought that was sweet, especially considering that I was sort of under the impression that he didn’t really care that much one way or the other. Why do I always lean on the side of people NOT caring about me and my presence in their lives???
I went for walk around the park today and then did some dumbbell exercises before sitting down to get some work done. I slept in until about 11 or so, though I wish I could get into a better sleep pattern that involved an early bedtime and earlier waking up time. It’s hard to feel like you can be productive when, by the time you sit down to do so, it’s already 1 or 2 in the afternoon (after exercise, showering, breakfast of some sort….).
I made myself a to-do list so I could refer to it and make sure I’m working on things that actually need to be done. It’s funny how the e-mails and calls I’m supposed to make I can easily find energy for, but when it comes to doing the actual work, I just feel like distracting myself with anything I can think of – reading emails, watching episodes of TV shows I’ve recorded or downloaded or going back to bed. I think this tells me, loud and clear, that it’s time to take this thing to the next level. I have to get some people working for me that I can pass the project work off to and I can keep going after new business and closing deals.
I went to Chapters with Laina earlier – she wanted to buy a copy of Nikki Sixx’s book, The Heroin Diaries. I told her that he was going to be in Seattle doing a signing there and, lo and behold, I saw signs in Chapters in Metrotown while we were there that said he’s going to be in that store the day before he’s going to be in Seattle, so we’re going to try to go meet him there instead of driving down to Seattle. Jeez, though, I sure was looking forward to the idea of getting away, even for just a night!
Tracey has been working like a maniac lately. I barely see her and, when I do, it’s usually when she’s off on weekdays when I should be home working or for a short couple of hours at the end of the day when she’s exhausted and just wants to go to bed. There are definitely times when I wish she had a more normal schedule – Monday-Friday, 9-5 and I think I’d be a lot more consistently productive if she did because I’d know we would have the weekends to spend together. The Production Manager just decided that they want to have security at the studio every day during the day, so I think my wish may come true, though she’s not thrilled at the idea of having to be there all the time when people are around.
I’ve been watching episodes of Rock of Love with Bret Michaels that I downloaded. What a hoot that is. It’s sort of like a combination of The Bachelor, but rock-star style, which means he makes no…err…bones about tonguing them down not long after meeting them. There are some crazy women on there. It’s just sort of fun for me to watch this show about the singer for a band that was my absolute favourite when I was in high school. Back in the day, there was never enough interviews or live footage of the people in those bands and now there’s YouTube. Hallelujah!
Off to watch one more episode and then I’m heading to bed. *yawn*