August 7, 2004 (11:34pm)

Nothing major to report tonight.  Just felt like getting some things down.  Talking to Rachel Cherry (from my first marketing class) on MSN.  She’s telling me about her boyfriend and how she’s been cheating on him with another guy.  I’m telling her that cheating isn’t worth it and to just get outta the current sitch before getting involved with someone else.  God, I never want to go down that cheating road again!  It’s too hurtful for everyone involved and it’s really just a coward’s way of getting what they want (or so they think) without risking what they already have.  How shitty!  In a way, I think that people aren’t really meant to be monogamous, though.  It almost seems unnatural, especially for men, given how hard a time they have remaining faithful in a relationship.  Sometimes, I think just staying single and doing what you want is the way to go.  But, I really do love having someone to come home to and someone to snuggle up behind at night.  SIGH

Tracey and I went out with Tina to Avanti’s the other night.  Laina came by after we’d already been there a while.  I drank WAY too much.  Tracey left at about midnight or something, maybe earlier and Tina and Laina asked me to stay, so I did, though I should have just gone home with Tracey.  I’d already drank more than I should and I had another two drinks (as far as I can remember) after she left.  We hung out at Avanti’s chatting and stuff and then went by Laina’s house to get the router.  I peed in some bushes behind a store on Commercial where Laina went to buy cigarettes.  For some stupid reason, I insisted on smoking one of her cigarettes…what the hell was I thinking?  Obviously, I wasn’t.  We went back to Laina’s and then I had a couple of puffs of a joint and, god, was I ever baked then.  I took a cab back home a little after 2 and got home just before 3.

While we were at the bar, Tina asked me how things were going with Tracey and I said “Oh, they’re going….” And she asked if we were still having sex problems and I said “Uhh…..well, yeah….” And then she was saying “OH, I know about that stuff already, Tracey and I can talk about stuff.” And she goes on to say how Tracey has always been into the chase and that’s always been the problem or something.  I don’t remember the conversation that much because I was so wasted but I’m sure that I shared too much information about what’s going on and stuff.  God, I hope she doesn’t remember all of it either cuz Tracey would probably kill me if I said anything more severe than what I can remember! UGGGGHHH!!!!