11-7-89 "History is the ship carrying living memories to the future." – Stephen Spender Jennifer came to my house last night. She brought her bass and I taught her part of "Crazy Train". She had to leave at 8:30. I got to keep her bass last night and I stayed up until 12:00 playing it.…

11-6-89 "To enjoy freedom we have to control ourselves." – virginia Woolf I went to my guitar lesson Friday. Karl told me a lot of stuff I didn’t want to hear about Mark. I don’t know if I should believe him or not. I care about Mark a lot but there are so many things…

11-3-89 "Don’t ever slam a door; you might want to go back." – Don Herold Today makes 2 years since my great-grandmother died. We were really close. I miss her SOOOO much. When I used to go to Mississippi, I couldn’t wait to go se her. Now, I don’t like to go down there anymore…

11-2-89 "There is no failure except in no longer trying." I got home about 3:45. I missed the bus and Nikki did, too, so she called her mom to come get us. we went to McDonald’s, and then to Sean’s, but he wasn’t home so Nikki’s mom brought me home. Nikki is so dumb for…

11-1-89 "A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable, but more useful than a life of doing nothing." – Bernard Shaw Today is relatively boring. I painted Bonnie’s face last night and helped her pass out candy last night. I had to go to church at 7:00 though. There were all kinds of…

10-31-89 – HALLOWEEN!! BOO! "Wonder rather than doubt is the root of knowledge." – Abraham J. Herschel I have the most exciting news! Bonnie found out that we may be able to open for Razor White in February. It’s nothing definite yet but there’s a good chance. God, I’m SOOOOO happy. This may be a…

10-30-89 "The less of routine, the more of life." – A.B. Alcott Well, I had an interesting weekend. On the way home Friday, our bus had a flat. I didn’t get home until 3:30. I went and saw Mark Friday. God, he is SOOOOO fine. He was glad to see me, and God knows I…

10-27-89 "TV – chewing gum for the eyes." – Frank Lloyd Wright Today has been a disaster. Nikki isn’t here and I’ve been so bored. I might get to go see Zaemon Blaiz and Black Rose tomorrow night. I’m going to Sound City to see Mark after school. I’m so glad. I haven’t seen him…

10-25-89 "Discipline and focused awareness contribute to the act of creation." – John Poppy I wrote two more songs. One is called "Get it Straight". The other one is "Evil Seduction". They are relatively strange. Bonnie liked "Get it Straight" and so did Nikki. I have to admit, I started out hating having to write…

10-24-89 "Try to know everything of something and something of everything." – Henry Peter Lord Broughan I wrote a song called "Betrayal" about Nikki and Sean. I hope he doesn’t end up hurting her again. He better not or he’ll have to deal with me and 3 other people.