Perfectly Windy Sky

October 12, 1996 (not sure on the date – the entry was undated. I was still housesitting for Mike, so probably not far off.) Maggie and I are thinking about moving to Broadmoor. It really hurts in a way, but it feels comfortable. I talked to James tonight. I really called to see if they…

October 11, 1996 It’s been a while since I wrote in here. Maybe that’s why I’m in such a bad mood. I’m house-sitting for Mike. This is the third night. Bonnie was supposed to come over Wednesday night, but went out to New Orleans with James. She had a shitty time, which, in a hateful…

Sept. 27, 1996 I spent the night with Bon last night. We rode around and looked at the eclipse a little. We just sat around and watched T.V. and snacked. It was okay. She asked me why I come over there if I’m just bored all the time. I told her that I feel like…

Sept. 23, 1996 Work was okay today. I went and got mom some ice cream before work. She apologized for the stuff she said last night. She promises it won’t happen again. I wish I could believe that. I just wrote a poem. It’s kind of a sexy type thing. I can’t decide whether to…

Sept. 22, 1996 I just got back from Bonnie’s house. We had a really good time together. And the weird thing is we didn’t do anything much at all. We just sat around and watched TV and talked and munch a lot. It was really fun. She said she likes having me as a girlfriend.…

Sept. 17, 1996 I spent the night at Bonnie’s last night. We had the most incredible time. It has never been like that before. But, she just got up right after it was over. She just hurts my feelings so much when she does things like that. She said, "So, what? Another 3 weeks?" I…

Sept. 12, 1996 Today was crazy at work, we are two days behind on the work. I got a little anxious on the way home. But, I didn’t freak out, I handled it, so that’s good. Bonnie didn’t call me last night, big surprise. She was probably out having fun somewhere, while I, like a…

Sept. 11, 1996 I spent the night with Bon last night. To say the least, it was not what I expected. I got over there and a little while later we started to mess around and she stopped and asked me why I wanted to be with her. I asked her what she meant and…

Sept. 9, 1996 I guess this thing has sort of become a diary. I had to train some new people at work today – Molly and Neal. I had an anxiety attack right before I left work. I just wanted to get out of there. It’s so weird – not even something I can explain.…

Sept. 7, 1996 I’m really bored. I’m sitting here thinking about going and getting some wine or something. I just want something to make this crap go away. I talked to Bon for the first time in three days. She just doesn’t even talk to me the same. It’s almost so formal or something. I’m…